This is not a list.
It is not a series of promises to myself to become healthier, thinner, nicer, smarter, more financially savvy, less dependent on others. It is not an accounting of what I need to learn, new hobbies to start, or old hobbies to regain.
This is about resolution in the sense of closure.
Just about a year ago, I gave myself a year to "get my life together." As I write this, my life is probably more scattered than ever. The last twelve or so months have brought significant changes in work, residence, and relationships. All are in various stages of shifting from what was to what will be, as I try my best to live in the moment of what is.
There is one more shift that needs to happen, however. One that needs resolution.
It's time to be a writer. Not a college instructor and consultant who also writes; a writer who is also a college instructor and consultant. It's time to make "writer" - the art, craft, and business of it - the center of my creative and working life, instead of the other way around.
Life has a way of keeping everything up in the air: changing, moving, flowing, stagnating, starting over, turning over, running over, running dry, running out, running home. The resolution to "get my life together" is one that won't be completed in a year. It describes a full life's work.
And, it's time to make writing my life's work too.
It's a scary shift to make, in some ways, but it also feels profoundly comforting, and deeply right.
So, here's to all the resolutions and resolution we need in 2013. We need our lists of things to improve and learn; and we also need the courage to bring closure to the changes we know we need to complete.
I wish you the best with your resolutions, of all kinds, and for a new year that brings peace and joy to one and all.
Elizabeth Fountain's first novel will be published by Champagne Books in spring of 2013.
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